Wednesday, December 30, 2020

another rant from another person...add yours

“So it happened again last night . I knew it would . It’s actually been many months since the last one happened . I knew not to believe that it was over because although it wasn’t happening , I could still feel it’s shadow following me around day after day just waiting for the perfect situation to show it’s ugly head . And sure enough that it did last night as I sat on my couch waiting for my son to come home. One imagination after another is what opened the door to this demon from hell . And sure enough I was once again trapped in its web paralyzed by fear . Then finally I got the text and fear loosened its grip . I cried knowing it’s not over .. it will happen again one day . It’s so hard to skip through life knowing whats waiting for me around the bend . But I must keep going” SJ

Tuesday, December 29, 2020

More and More people are feeling this way - Whats your story right now

I have been gathering peoples feelings and stories and their cries of frustration fear and depression... Do you have an answer for these peoples cries ? Do you have your own rant ? Please share send and give some input on how to help them PSRK

Monday, December 28, 2020

Rage is in me... help me please someone help this pain and torment

I'm on fire with rage,,,,, no more can I stand this.. Help anger rage lost want to lash out… bitter sorry want to run run far away want to cry scream yell and punch the wall…. Need someone to blame I'm tired of taking all the blame I'm tire of the lies and phony people.. Their all fools and liars and frauds but then so am I…..sick perverted ugly dumb and tired of being the fall guy…. Its always me that's to blame and I guess my plan didn't work out well…. Humility when false bring nothing… frustrated with everyone…. Done with the masks … done with the automaton drones and people who are so blind and foolish…. No one sees the truth no one gets anything.. everyone is selfish and evil and that's just the way it is… at the end of the day we are all fake self lovers yet self loathers like me… I hate hate hate me… I hate everything rage rage rage and it doesnt matter anyway.,,,, Its dark and its cold and this waiting is too much to bare…. So come on save the day you frauds save the day… run wild with your desires and lets see how it all works out…. I wish it all gone but I wish it all right …. talking to walls for too long and it just never changes People are just who they are and know what…. I am the most evil vile person I have ever met…. Its me… you cant top me because I'm the worst… evil incarnate it seems .. Are other people really that nice… maybe I am that one wicked one Nothing matters anymore NTG

Thursday, December 24, 2020

Help this person - Help me.... I am done !!! Please someone answer me DEC 2020... done done done

SOME ONE PLEASE LISTEN TO ME – I am NOT NOT NOT gonna make it much longer No more 2020 no more Covid- Im done with this all….I am waiting for an answer So this is Christmas and you know what- I cant do it anymore… Im tired of this covid of the masks of everything and I just want to be dead. Well maybe not dead but away from this all… I want to sleep and wake up with all of this as just a bad dream. I want to be happy healthy , be with my friends and have a good time again… I want to be free from depression and fear and anxiety...I hate who I am and I hate everything sometimes - Why does life have to be this way ? Why do I dread getting up each day and cant wait for bed at night. Other people always seem so happy with their loves and money.. Why cant I have allot of money and a love to call my own and just have fun.. why cant I be a famous rich beutiful person… I hate my body and face and everything !!! I just hate hate hate Why cant someone fix this mess why cant someone fix me ? Why do I have to work and go to school ? Why cant I just have an easy fun life… is it asking too much ??? I dont want to bother anyone just want to be something that im not 2020 sucked but 2019 wasnt a joy ride either … I am scared to death about 2021…. Maybe just maybe if we get some new people in charge of things maybe they can fix it all…. Lets give them a chance maybe they have new ideas do , maybe that can fix everything and then help people like me . I dont know im just ranting and hoping someone something will change … I just want to sleep sleep sleep and then cry and just sleep someone… I dont think I will ever be happy.. I really dont but whats the point ? No one understands me NO ONE!!!! I watch some movies and wish I was in them but Im not and I dont know… it just sucks that we cant have what we want and what we want seems to always be bad for us… Why do drugs and drinking have to be bad-- they help right ? Why cant I just enjoy things without myself or someone else judging me.. Sometimes I just want to vomit I just want to be a child again or live somewhere far away. I wish there was another dimension I could enter into.. I wish I could live on some remote island but sometimes I dont want to be alone . I dont know what I want but I know I dont want this.. I dont want them or me or anything. I dont even know what I mean.. I just want to be happy…. Why why why why why cant I be happy ????????????????????? Where am I going to be next year or in 10 years – the same looser all alone in this pain and fear that NEVER NEVER leaves me… why cant I tell anyone about what I really feel sometimes I have dark thoughts of things I want that im embarrassed to even admit...maybe im not as cool as I hoped I was… maybe this statement I am trying to make is a waste… maybe another tat will fix me I dont know… I want to cover my body in so many tats that no one sees me . Maybe if I could move and get a new start maybe another country would be better., everyone knows me here but then again no one knows me… I remember school and how it use to be… I remember laughing it was nice… some great parties that I hoped would never end . SOME ONE please answer me !!! I dont think I can keep this up much longer… No more cold no more Covid no more masks no more of them telling me whats right and wrong Is there anyone out there listening to me ???? I can draw and I like music but who cares who knows me who wants me ??? I am waiting !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!\ Hello out there … maybe a UFO could come and pick me up and take me out of here…. JTS

Wednesday, December 23, 2020

HELP I CANT GET HAPPY !!!!!!!!

I am so afraid and falling into DEEP depression !!!!!

If you are struggling like never before... if this NEW COVID WORLD is breaking the thin string that was barely holding you up.... Well STAY TUNED !!! A new WORD is coming on this to get you and ((( I ))) ready for 2021

Thursday, November 26, 2020

I DONT UNDERSTAND WHATS GOING ON---- HELP ME

 Please click on link below if you dont understand 


Word of Hope (196) UNDERSTANDING (11-26-20) Click on link below to listen.MP3 - https://app.box.com/s/8rw5lnzd7gejeww2lvchzzexnzi0r9fu

Tuesday, November 10, 2020

WHY WHY WHY CANT I EVER EVER BE HAPPY ???? PLEASE WATCH THIS YOU HAVE NOTHING TO LOSE

 PLEASE 


With all the Pain and Suffering in the World

Why waste another minute being sad ?


Please WATCH THIS VIDEO TILL THE END !!!


Give is a fare shake...what have you got to loose ??


Click here 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oSu-5Ja0nKA&t=10s


Wednesday, September 30, 2020

I see you. Do you see me

 I see you.  I see you making disgusted looks in my direction when I walk in the room.  I see you covering your mouth as you lean in towards your friend, laughing as you make eye contact with me.  I see you as you make assumptions about me.  I see you judging me from your high horse.  Yes, I do see you.

You don’t see me.  You don’t see that no matter how hard you judge me, my own self judgement is 100x worse.  You don’t see that I know I am ugly, even hideous and frightening to look at and there’s nothing I can do to change that.  You don’t know that it is a struggle every day to see myself in the mirror.  You don’t see that I cannot believe the bathroom scale and I am convinced that I am at least 400lbs.  You don’t see that every comment, every snicker, every whisper, every laugh and every look of disgust adds to my belief that I am the most hideous looking person on the planet.  
You don’t see the real me.  You don’t see my struggle to go outside because I know you are judging me based on my looks.  You don’t see my anxiety when I am forced to talk to you, knowing that you are grossed out by me.  You don’t see me crying myself to sleep at night when your actions and words kill my self worth a little more each time.  
What you also don’t see is that I would still do anything for you, knowing full well you wouldn’t care or appreciate it.  You don’t see that I would do anything for your safety or comfort before my own.  
I see you.  Even though you laugh, gossip and make faces of disgust, you still do not see me.

Monday, September 21, 2020

Im tired of being tired and sick of being depressed !!! How about you ? ( LETS VENT )

 

Dear friends across this messed up planet

I want to apologize for not blogging in a long time

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So here is my rant for 9-20-20

Now I dont know about you but on top of our normal Anxiety and Depression issues we now have this whole Covid thing

This whole unrest and riots

This fear on top of fear 

The fires, earthquakes and civil unrest 

Whats next ? UFO invasions ?

People are becoming scarry and life is becoming more then we can handle.. It's down right exhausting and if your like me you dont know how much more you can take.

What will happen to the USA in November ?

What will happen to your country ?

What happens if ( THEY) take over ?

Our meds are not enough anymore, friends are not helping if we even have any. And of money and jobs well thats not looking good either .

So are you sick and tired of being sick and tired

Depressed about being depressed ?

Anxious about being anxious ?

Some days i just want to climb under the covers and never come out.

Plus these masks and germs are freaking me out ....Was a germ nut before but now this is too much to bare !

So what's left ? What are you doing to hold on ?

Porn, Drugs, Sex, Drinking, Hiding, Writing, Art, Walking, Pot,Vaping , Cutting  ?

We have religious nuts on the one side and political nuts on the other side and everything in between

Well it just all sucks and what can any one expect a person to bare....

So what about you- let's hear from all of you from around the world.  How are you coping with all of this ?


I really really really want to know

And I really really care 

PSRK

Please reply here or message me on Facebook or email me at depressionanxietygod@gmail.com



Thursday, August 6, 2020

Do men get depressed.

 

While many men who suffer from depression feel that somehow, and in some way, they are weak or deficient, I have found it most encouraging to reflect on great men who have suffered from depression. Many men from Scripture, including kings David and Solomon fell prey to it.

 

While for a period of my childhood Roy Rogers was my idol, the real male heroes of my life are not the John Wayne, Clint Eastwood, or Arnold Schwarzenegger–types. Nor do Indiana Jones, Robocop, or any Terminators of movie fame ring my bells. My heroes are men like John Wesley, Charles Spurgeon, John Calvin, and Martin Luther. You can also add men like Abraham Lincoln, Winston Churchill, Martin Luther King, and Nelson Mandela.

 

What is interesting about these men is that, besides being famous, they all knew about depression firsthand. And I mean serious depression. These men, despite their bouts with melancholy, achieved great things for God. Not only were they able to transcend bouts with depression, but they were able, like the apostle Paul, to turn their “affliction” into a force that drove them to compensate for their “down” times. What is really amazing is that they were able to survive major depressions at a time when there were absolutely no forms of treatment available. They were alone in their battles. In fact, until a mere fifty years ago, you were lucky not to end up in a mental institution if you had a severe depression.

 

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Of the more recent great men who have suffered from depression, Sir Winston Churchill has always stood out for me. Always the underdog and an almost total failure by the time he was in his sixties, he found his moment of destiny in history had come when he was chosen to help the British Empire withstand the onslaughts of Hitler’s Nazism. His father and five of the seven dukes of Marlborough, his ancestors, suffered from depression, a clear sign of its genetic causes. All his life he suffered spells of depression, sinking into brooding depths of melancholy—he called it his “black dog.” Every day he chiseled his way through his duties praying for the relief that never came.

Depressed Saints

What is even more amazing and encouraging to me is how some of the great saints of God have suffered from depression. Is it possible that it was their very pain that made them what they became? They were by no means weak men. Luther’s great spirit was often in the seventh heaven of exultation, and as frequently on the borders of despair. According to Charles Spurgeon, the great British preacher of the latter part of the last century, even Luther’s very deathbed was not free from turmoil as he sobbed himself into his last sleep “like a great wearied child.”

 

Spurgeon, of all these great men of God, was the only one who seemed to understand the true nature of depression. One of his lectures to the young men at Spurgeon’s College, the seminary he founded, contains the following words of wisdom:

 

As it is recorded that David, in the heat of battle, waxed faint, so may it be written of all the servants of the Lord. Fits of depression come over the most of us. Usually cheerful as we may be, we must at intervals be cast down. The strong are not always vigorous, the wise not always ready, the brave not always courageous, and the joyous not always happy.


A man of extraordinary humor with a laugh that could single him out in an enormous crowd, Spurgeon knew from personal experience the depths of despair. He knew that some suffered from depression while others didn’t and had a sneaking suspicion that there were reasons for this. Depression was not God’s judgment for sin, nor was He was turning His back on a believer. It happened when one neglected oneself, when one was sick, when one was stressed out, when one didn’t get enough rest and sleep, when one was occupied in a sedentary lifestyle, when one was a “leader of men”—and sometimes for no discernible reason at all. “Causeless depression,” he said, “is not to be reasoned with… You might as well fight with the mist as with this shapeless, indefinable, yet all beclouding hopelessness.” And all this came just from very carefully observing himself. It is about as accurate a description of the causes of depression as I have ever seen or could come up with myself!

 

I share this account of great men who have suffered from severe depression as an encouragement to those men who may feel that their depression is a sign of a totally wasted life. It is not! You keep company with some of the greatest human beings that have ever lived!

Should Men Be Concerned About Depression?

My answer is simple and emphatic: yes. In any given year, according to the National Institute of Mental Health, three to four million men in the United States alone suffer from clinical depression. And the number is rising by the month.

 

While the risk of abandoning life is very high when you are depressed (I have seen too many suicides not to be acutely aware of how dangerous depression can be), suicide is not the only outcome risk of depression. As someone has said, “Those who don’t put a gun to their heads are liable to die in other untimely ways.” For instance, researchers at the John Hopkins School of Hygiene and Public Health have found that depression is a big factor in fatal heart attacks. It also increases blood pressure and cholesterol. The reason? We now realize that depression is a significant cause of stress. A recent study from Ohio State University suggests that depression increases men’s, but not women’s, risk of dying from heart disease.

 

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But health and life are not the only reasons why men should be concerned about depression. When a husband or father is so incapacitated by depression that he will not own and get treatment for it, a whole family is cut down. When that husband or father is a Christian, his family’s spiritual well-being is often also placed in jeopardy, let alone his own. To put it bluntly, a man who is depressed, for whatever reason, who refuses to get treatment or attend to his depression, is not only harming his own life, but also the lives of those who love and want to care for him. If only you could hear the stories of despair, hopelessness, and abandonment I hear from wives, perhaps you might try a little harder to get help. Those nearest and dearest to you don’t deserve to be treated this way.

 

There is one more reason why men, all men, should be concerned about depression. There is so much nonsense in the beliefs of men, particularly nonsense about the nature and treatment of depression, that it is as if men, particularly Christian men, are still living in the dark ages. I’m serious. With so much information now available to all of us about how devastating depression can be, how can the truth just be ignored? True, depression is undiagnosed in more than two-thirds of the men who suffer from it, so the mental health professionals who ignore male depression have to bear some of the blame. But our Christian subculture is guilty of perpetuating some of the most archaic and distorted attitudes toward depression, distortions that cause a lot of unnecessary suffering.

 

Depression is a lot more common in men than statistics tend to show. Even when it is accurately diagnosed, the treatment will often be ineffective for several reasons: the wrong medication is being used, the dosage is incorrect, or the sufferer doesn’t follow through on the treatment (called “non- compliance”—the bane of every treating professional’s life). Often a particular type of psychotherapy is needed rather than medication, although some professionals are not adequately trained to discern this. It is no wonder, therefore, that many depressed men stand on the sideline and insist that this game is not for them! Treatment appears, to many of them, to be a hopeless endeavor, so they don’t even try!

 

Men should also be concerned about their own beliefs and feelings about depression because these will affect (I was going to say “infect,” which is equally true) the men around them, including their own sons. For most men, depression is something not discussed or talked about, and this silence surrounding depression actually perpetuates depression. I am talking about Christian men as much as I am about non-Christian. Many believe that if you live a “God-directed life,” you will never become depressed. Too many devout and deeply committed men have suffered through the centuries from depression for this to be true!

 

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Fortunately, the prospect for recovery is better than it has ever been in history. While in times past depression was a devastatingly powerful disorder, it now need not be feared. This is the hope that I want to engender in my readers. Gone are the days when depression was a terrible thing to behold or experience. We can welcome a new hope for those who are depressed, born out of the discoveries we are now making. I see all healing discoveries that help to alleviate human suffering as “gifts from God.” After all, it is the brain He has provided us with that has made these discoveries possible. All that remains is for us to receive these gifts of healing, open the prison gates of our depression, and let ourselves free. We do not lack for help. What we lack is the courage to receive that help.

Excerpted with permission from Unmasking Male Depression by Dr. Archibald D. Hart, copyright Archibald Hart.

 

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Your Turn

How have you or others encountered the “black dog” of depression? How does it bring you hope to know that so many great men of history have encountered bouts of depression in their lives? We’d love to hear your thoughts in the comments!

Wednesday, July 8, 2020

A True Story of Healing and Success (JENA'S STORY)

A real life story of a person broken and weak yet given a new life.....

Dare we listen to HER story


click on link below to watch


Monday, July 6, 2020

ITS TIME TO GET REAL !! Follow this PLAN !

The DEAL OF THE CENTURY 

for those who 
CHOOSE TO ACCEPT  IT

But time is running out 

Please click on Youtube clip below
Fast forward to the message

And if it a FAIR LISTEN 

Monday, June 8, 2020

Life is worth fighting for.

Got the call at 5 pm
You roommate said you'd left a note saying you could use a friend
So I went to the hospital with my heart all choked up tight
And I prayed while I drove, praying you would be alright
That morning you called to talk
You talked about how life was a merry go round
And you wanted to get off
But I never thought I'd see you here
I never thought I'd hold your hand
In your hour of need
I always thought you'd cry for help
I always thought you'd understand
That life is worth fighting for
Life is worth fighting for
So you thought no one understood
You thought tomorrow would be easier
If we went on without you
But my friend it's a lie, please hold on, call for help
Oh my friend it's your life, you are not by yourself
So you're living on the razor's edge
Well I've been there myself holding a gun to my head
If you hold my hand, can you hold on for a moment longer
If you know I love you, does it make it better?
Don't give up, don't give in
We can make it together

Monday, June 1, 2020

When FEAR and SORROW is all around - REMEMBER !!

If Fear Worry and Anxiety about all thats happening around you is destroying your ability to cope and live 


Please 
REMEMBER !!!!

Below is a link to what we MUST REMEMBER
or
We will be consumed 

And IF you listen to the end and understand it
THEN and ONLY then
Can you find Joy Peace and a Sound sleep
DESPITE the Termoil

click on link below...

If you like- Please subscribe 



Sunday, May 24, 2020

I'm not your suicide. Please help us stop this monster.

Please help support the movement to stop the world wide plaque -no not Covid but Suicide.  It is out of control.  

Watch my friend Michael Sweets amazing song.  Let's stop this epidemic 

Click on link 

I'm NOT your suicide !!!!

Saturday, May 16, 2020

If your thinking about taking your life today

Greetings dear friend

If you are at a place where you cant take it anymore

Where taking your life is the only solution you see..

If you are there and crying out to God and saying
God if you are real then why dont you answer me somehow in a supernatural way ?

Well HE IS...

This IS your answer from God today

DONT TAKE YOUR LIFE my child
I am speaking from Heaven today and I heard your cry

Hold on one day more and seek ME...
Cry out to ME ....

Read my words to you....

DONT DO IT !!!!!

Tuesday, May 12, 2020

I CANT TAkE this AnY more. I'm Done

If your at the place where you are saying these words -
I CANT Do This
I cant take this life and fear

Well click on this link below

I CANT DO THIS. CLICK THIS LINK

PROMISES PROMISES PROMISES - in the Dark ?!?!

Are broken PROMISES 
breaking our hearts ?

DONT BE HURT AGAIN
EVER AGAIN !!!!!

click on podcast below 

Wednesday, May 6, 2020

Monday, May 4, 2020

Saturday, May 2, 2020

Some scientific FACTS to think about......

I want FACTS 
not
RELIGION...

Please give me facts
and then

THEN I will have some hope

Click on link below 





IS THERE A GOD ?? Proof is what we NEED !!!!

Really now

If there is NO GOD
NO CREATOR

Well
Then where do we go from there ?

So lets dig into science and see

What if there is and what if there is not 



Click on link below and give it a shot...
What have you go to loose 

Then watch the follow up post
about the
FACTS OF SCIENCE 



https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DwnGEIHPD0I&t=5s

Monday, April 13, 2020

Free Daily Podcast of GOOD NEWS- subscribe below NO Strings

If you would like a daily free (Word of Hope-Audio podcast) each day sent to you please message me your email or phone number to text.
you can email your request to
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This is a sample for today

Wednesday, April 1, 2020

Wednesday, March 25, 2020

If you feel like you CANT DEAL WITH THIS CORONA THING

If your like me then your starting to have enough of this Covid-19
And you dont know how much longer you can handle the fear

Well this video if listened to the end will give you the power to MAKE IT THROUGH

Click on link below 

Sunday, March 1, 2020

Help the Sky is falling part 2 ( Corona Virus Truth vs Lies )

So its looking bleak

What can we do ?

Fear is creeping in and taking away all your joy 

You thought dealing with Depression and Anxiety was bad enough 
BUT NOW

There really is something to be afraid of

OR IS THERE ?

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Well here are some facts

1) So far more people died of the regular flu last year by a long shot
2) This flu as flu's go has far less harsh symptoms then the regular flu
3) People who do die are mostly older and with pre existing conditions

BUT
I know your still afraid 

Well - What can we do ?
Stay inside all day ?
Don't go near people ?
Don't fly ?
Dont travel ?

Well that's basically our life dealing with Depression and Anxiety 

Friends and fellow sufferers 

FEAR as we know is a JOY killer 
but
Irrational Fear is a LOGIC killer 

Lets keep this is mind as we monitor this Coronavirus thing

Remember those words I gave you last time
Subjufuge 
and
Subtergate 

Well to Subterfuge is to purposely mislead lie and device by means of Media, News, and Propaganda. All in an attempt to keep you from the truth 

And
Subjugate 
Well this is ever worse because this is the WHY to Subjufuge 

Which is
To bring under control another so you can hold power over them and subdue them

What IF this is under the spell of those two words

Something to think about

So in closing till part 3 

Lets Focus on REAL TRUTH
and
WHERE REAL truth is found
cause

Someone is lying 

And Where there is absence of Truth there is abundance of Fear 

That is ONE THING we DON'T need right now  
As
Our Depression and Anxiety give us
ENOUGH of THAT

Stay tuned 

Thursday, February 27, 2020

Wednesday, February 26, 2020

Help the sky is Falling - CORONA FLU FEARS - Are they real ? OMNIPHOBIA


So lets be honest

We all know that deep down in our hearts, even though we try to make believe it is not bothering us- well ( IT IS ) !!!

All of the WHAT IF'S? keeping bouncing around our heads and if our regular anxiety and depression was not bad enough- well this is too much to bare .

So what are we to to ?
Will we all die ?
Is it going to take over my country, nation, town, home ?

What am I going to do ?

What can I do ?

What should I do ?

Should I stay inside ?

Should I take any precautions ?

And MOST OF ALL

Is this REALLY the thing that 
WIPES OUT HUMANITY ?

Well
over the next few days I will be giving you all the information you need


TO

Not worry or fear  this
Why it can't really do what you fear the most
IF
If you know the Truth about Life and Death 

For homework here are some words to think about

SUBTERFUGE
SUBTIGATE 
and
OMNIPHOBIA 

Stay tuned and together 
We can get through this
WITHOUT FEAR 
or
PANIC 



Tuesday, February 4, 2020

IMPORTANT - Truth Video that will lead to your HEALING and HAPPINESS

Your depressed, filled with Anxiety, the World is out of control and its scaring the heck out of us all.
So WHAT is the answer ?

TRUTH !!!!! We need TRUTH and we WILL find it together 

Please join us on this TRUTH QUEST  beginning with this link below 


Sunday, February 2, 2020

here it is - Why you NEED NOT fear the Corona Virus or anything EVER !

Dear world friends-

I know there is so much to fear and worry about these days. But what if there was a way to never fear these things. Then you could enjoy life FEARLESSLY !

Well PLEASE I beg you- listen to this podcast below and give it a FAIR FULL LISTEN

What have you got to loose ?


Click on link below 

BEING AFRAID - NO MORE

Saturday, February 1, 2020

FEAR - WORRY- AFRAID !!!! The Corona Virus, Middle east wars,


Special message coming soon

Stay tuned 

FEAR - WORRY- AFRAID !!!!
The Corona Virus, Middle east wars, Impeachment Concerns ..
If you EVER come to a Church service once in your life--
THIS SUNDAY 11:00am is the time to come

WHY ?? Because you will learn how to NEVER be AFRAID of anything EVER EVER EVER again - How nothing can take away what you love the most and fear losing the most--
NO GIMMICKS !! This is a MUST listen message if you are to survive this mess.
Dont miss this Message
BEING AFRAID at the Centereach Bible Church