Joy unspeakable
Imagine that ?
So today I give the big reveal. The answer to all of everything. The beginning of the ending of this misery called depression and anxiety.
What’s sad is that most of you when you begin reading my lengthy antidote to this all- you will stop and say.” “I know where this is going, I have heard this before, and I am not going to buy it”. Well that will be a sad day because just around the corner from excepting this one and ONLY answer is freedom and joy unspeakable. My only hope is that among the thousands of you out there who read my blog that even just one would take a chance. Take a risk and say; “ well what do I have to loose “? Friends that’s what I did in April of 1983. It was a long road but one that ended up where I am today - FREE ! Maybe one of you will be foolish enough like I was to follow what I will say. To follow it carefully and hear. Really hear what is being said and maybe understand it for the very first time.
S.R.K.
Joy
Joy so big wide and deep that it cant be described..
Well if your like me - well when I think of Joy it is always (minus) depression and anxiety. It is always with love coming from some source.
See where there is joy there must be love. Either from something or for something. Yet as to this monster of depression and anxiety as to this horrid world of darkness and despair- well; where can it be found ?
Where is this joy unspeakable ?
Is it found in suicide ?
Is it found in illegal drugs and intoxication?
Is it found in cutting ?
Is it found in a new tattoo ?
Is it found is sex ?
Is it found in music ?
Is it found in the arts ?
Is it found in the governments ?
Is it found in science ?
Is it found in a new love ?
Well maybe that last one might be a clue because I know joy and escape without end are not found in the first nine. So to some degree joy is found in love but the loves that I have had come and go. They either leave you , break or rust away. But I do know I like love, and I like being loved; in fact I love being loved..
You know I once heard it said that there was one who loved us even before we loved him. Which always made me think. If such a person was real then I would - love him, because he first loved us.
But where can this love be ? Where is this love so powerful that it is bigger then my life and its dark pains ? It would have to be bigger and it would have to be stronger and so it would have to be not of this world.
So I began to search and when I sought this love with all my heart I began to find it. So I began to search in the dark clouds. I sought out the Other worlds. I sought the spirits to see if this could be found. I played with the occult, I entertained life from other planets but it was always cold dark and void of any lasting love, joy and peace. So I continued my quest. My star Trek if you will. I called out to the night skies and wondered where this Love above all loves might reside. So I decided that to find this I would have to envision what it might be to be this one. So I thought of an eternal being and what that might look like. Guess it would be lonely out there and not having a beginning or an end it might also be dull and sad. Then I thought based upon the world that I can see with my naked I what this being or force might be like. Would it be evil or good ? Loving or Hating ? Warm or cold, ugly or beautiful ? Well it was clear by the animals flowers and mountain views that it had to at least once been wonderful filled with love joy power and goodness. I looked at my pet dog and his gentle eyes and soft ears. I looked at the stillness of the water and saw peace love and gentleness but in other waters I saw power and volume and strength which was important to me because Love without Power is useless. So began my creation of form and thought and what would be the next step.. Maybe to be alone but also one who had love but no one to love. So taking a risk one would say - “if I have this power and have this love, why don’t I make something to love and maybe it just might love me back”. So it began creating but immediately it had to stop because it thought of a chilling reality , that if one were to make something to love and be loved, well then would it be a real love at all ? Meaning if I created something that must love me could it really be love ? The answer was clear; I must take the biggest risk in loving which is to love by faith. To love something before you knew if it were to love you. Free will screamed at me. Free will told me it must be a part of true love or true love could never be found. Free will is integral to true love. Imagine dating someone or being married to them. Then all of a sudden you hear that all these years they were getting paid to love you by a third party. How would that make you feel ? It would expose the lie that you bought. The lie that you were never really loved at all. But anyway back to our case for building this hypothetical celestial lover of us.. So he would be out there and decide to create something #1 for himself but #2 with a benefit for those he created. So he decides on a design but the only design he knows best is himself, so he begins to make us in his own image. Somehow like him but never able to be him. Have the ability to love, and receive love but yet without the power of the maker. So he forms man kind but needs to place him some place. It would have to be a place that could sustain mankind so he begins building a terrarium of sorts.. Right temp ,right air for his creatures to breath. There would need to be food and things needed for this “being” to live off of. So lets say he creates a place like earth. Then his next plan is to create the people and the animals. All the while making this a wonderful safe clean place to live and thrive. Even the animals would be in part for the peoples comfort and joy. But yet again he must program the people with a DNA free from coercion. For at the end of the day his desire is to be loved and loved freely. So this is all done and the creatures (us) are formed. Life begins and we begin to enjoy all that this “maker” has made and provided for us. Its IS what we all always dreamed of. Perfection peace love and comfort. No fear worry or concern. Our minds would be perfect with no issues or quirks. It would just be fabulous.
Yet in order for things to keep rolling and the maker to keep his creation safe and in the good confines of his protection and watch care - well he needed to create a system to govern by. One for the creatures own good. Now what’s so amazing is- that this governing system has only one rule. Everything else is allowed and encouraged. Sex is allowed to the fullest. No shame in what we look like or anything we do. Its simple bliss. But again that one limitation , that one rule. That rule is that we just don’t open up door number six. All other doors and experiences are allowed and encouraged. So the maker sits back and enjoys maybe for the first time this new amazing love interchange with that which he just made. It is sweet but there is a problem. See the problem is that - this creation is not the first as there has been an experiment before. See the maker made another set of beings with a little too much similarities to himself. This plan didn’t work so a portion of that plan was scraped and tossed out. And so as the maker is making us that older creation is festering in jealousy.
This is where worlds collide.
See as the new creation is enjoying its Nirvana the old is waiting to snatch it away. To snatch away their joy, happiness, peace and most of all their love they get from the maker. Now this first creation “beings” knows he cant stop the maker from loving what he made but he can try to separate the creature from the creators love. He knows again he cant stop the love but he can place a wall between the two. This wall is only made through the breaking of the first prime directive. So with that in mind and knowing how weak and less then he is the 2nd creation - he brings an idea to the creature. He basically says - “hey this maker you love and follow, he isn’t so great and though he gives you one thousand doors to look into and explore he still wont let you look behind door number six”- “how selfish and mean is he.. See I know what’s behind that door and its what you have been missing. Its all the power and wisdom that he has that he keeps from you”. Well this is enough to trick the weak creatures that you and I am. So we take the bait and bite. Not knowing that in a moment of time this one decision would destroy all that is good pure and just. Fear and depression would begin. Sickness and cancer would start. And so it begins- us the creature peaks behind door number six and the creator has no choice but to separate. Separate from us. See the maker is complete and perfection and so were we but this broke that perfection and left the maker with no choice but to detach as perfection can only dwell with perfection. Now this was not a good day for the maker either. His heart is broken his love is lost and that which he doted over so carefully cant be touched by him.. This (imperfection ) becomes a wall between maker and what he has made.
But,,,,and here is what makes the “maker” and his love so amazing. See he decides that - if the first creature through a wrench into the relationship he has with his second creation (us). Then he will simply provide a failsafe measure to repair this breach between the two. He does in the form of a replacement. See when we the creation broke the relationship rules by building a wall -the maker sends a wall breaker to repair the breach between the two. Between Us and him. Why ? Because this unending love for what he made never ends and he can not bare to be separated. But yet again even with this wall breaker the maker must not forget the prime directive- free will of the creature. See even in sending a wall breaker the creature must decide on their own to receive it or if they even want it. Dear friends that’s where you and I and this entire cosmos are at right now. The place of making a choice. A choice to receive the upgrade to our mental hard drive system or to stick with windows 98. See we have a bug, a glitch a flaw, a defect that keeps us from the maker. See its not so much what’s broken in us but what’s missing. We are missing the upgrade. We are living with windows 98 in a 2017 technology world.. So what this all means is that we are not working up to par. We are working with all kinds of computer viruses in our head. Some of the damage is unfixable which is why medication is a help in some cases to help reconnect the severed wires of communication from one quadrant of our brain to the other. But yet even with counseling and medication where needed it still wont work because again.. We can fix what’s broken but not what’s missing. This my dear friend and fellow sufferer is where I give you the reboot code and upgrade protocols.
Now I know many will say - no way ! I don’t by it and I know all about this. But you really don’t if you have not received your renewed upgraded mind and software. Listen I was at a place of complete depression , planning my suicide gun in hand. Anxiety so bad that I could barely get out of bed. I have been where most of you are. Also I did the counseling route and the medication rout but all of that alone didn’t do it. Its like it wouldn’t take or match up with my mind issues. So this is where I was and it was NOT until I understood the “maker” the “first creation” and me as “the creature” that I was able to understand what I needed to do. What apposing forces were also fighting against me.. Trying to keep me from the make.
Friends- this is where you will have to trust me, have blind faith and at least consider that this might be right. Now I know your all thinking that Im going the “religion route” but I tell you- No Way !!! Religion is dead, a lie and is the reason for many many problems and wars in the world. So forget all of that- no I am going the “maker” loves his un touchable “creature” route and what we need to do is LET HIM do what He is waiting to do. Heal, renew, direct, comfort , guide, teach, and bring into his loving arms his way.
So how is that found ? Well hold on and don’t flip out on me but its found in a man, but more then a man. Its found in a Maker but more then a maker. Its found in Yahweh the Eternal God head. The Creator and lover of all that we are. And in getting back into His powerful healing love we need to go through His wall breaker - “Jesus Christ “. He is the way to the father. He pays for what we are and rebuilds the walls.. Allows the medication to work-(if we need it at all) , turns things around, reboots the mind, warms and comforts our hearts.
Now many will say - well but he is just another guy, guru or stupid religious figure made up in our desperate minds- but consider this - It is 2017. That is the year in which the whole world lives. But why ? How do we know its 2017. Well because something happened 2017 years ago that seems to be pretty important. It was the year this Wall breaker was born ( came to earth). And everything before that year is called - BS = Before Christ. Yes I know its now been changed to BCE = Before the Common Era but that’s just the deception of the first creation trying to keep us from our maker and healer.
See - if this Jesus is so phony and weak then why is his entrance into our world so significant?
People - lets cut to the chase here and get this all down correct. Here is what you must do or nothing will ever change or happen. You must admit that you and I are a flawed system. That we are not perfection like the maker. And that in order to be reunited with the “maker” we need the new hard and software. This is found by understanding our sins ( flaws) and that their very existence is the issue in keeping us from the only true lover of our souls . Then we must cry out to this maker and say - “please forgive me, heal me, change me. I want to be placed in your loving hands and given new life. I want to change and turn from anything that hurts you. I want to be hold and made able to walk with you again. I believe that Jesus is you become a man, came to this planet and took my place on the cross for my sins. He beat the curse and beat the virus and is only waiting for me to say - “ YES I want this” yes I want you to be Lord and only King over my life. And on this very day I confess you as the savior and only one to save me. I also know that if I don’t take what’s freely given I face not only this life in total separation but the next life when I die in eternal separation. See while we are alive we have a door to the answer but if we take our lives or die suddenly there is then no options left but eternal separation from love joy and peace. A depression and anxiety turned up to one million with no meds or relief. Forever and ever and not even sleep will be a way to escape it.
Please consider what I just offered you. Consider what might be waiting for you. Consider the alternative. .Pain and continued agony. Pain with no escape or ever a chance to beat this. People imagine one waiting to love on you like never before. That special friend who is always there to guide warm and love you. Yes life will still be hard at times because the entire cosmos is tainted with the bug but we don’t have to be. Counseling and meds can only work and help with that which is missing is replaced .. Which is what ?
The GOD factor….He in the form of Jesus Christ must be plugged in..
Stay tuned as more is to come on this…
But only for those who are humble enough to except this.
Following are some codes and wording from our maker about his plan and purpose.
17 I love them that love me; and those that seek me early shall find me.
18 Riches and honour are with me; yea, durable riches and righteousness.
19 My fruit is better than gold, yea, than fine gold; and my revenue than choice silver.
20 I lead in the way of righteousness, in the midst of the paths of judgment:
21 That I may cause those that love me to inherit substance; and I will fill their treasures.
For God so loved the world that he gave his only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life. 17God did not send his Son into the world to condemn it, but to save it.
Whom having not seen, ye love; in whom, though now ye see him not, yet believing, ye rejoice with joy unspeakable and full of glory:
9 Receiving the end of your faith, even the salvation of your souls.
For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.
Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. 29Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle, and you will find rest for your souls. 30For my yoke fits perfectly, and the burden I give you is light.”
John 15:9 As the Father hath loved me, so have I loved you: continue ye in my love.
10 If ye keep my commandments, ye shall abide in my love; even as I have kept my Father's commandments, and abide in his love.
11 These things have I spoken unto you, that my joy might remain in you, and that your joy might be full.
9 That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved.
10 For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation.
11 For the scripture saith, Whosoever believeth on him shall not be ashamed.
12 For there is no difference between the Jew and the Greek: for the same Lord over all is rich unto all that call upon him.
13 For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.
14 How then shall they call on him in whom they have not believed? and how shall they believe in him of whom they have not heard? and how shall they hear without a preacher?
15 And how shall they preach, except they be sent? as it is written, How beautiful are the feet of them that preach the gospel of peace, and bring glad tidings of good things!
S.R.K.97
